Next week my yoga teacher training begins and for the first time in my life I’m not entirely sure where I’m heading. Before, I was so busy thinking about my next steps and trying to prove things to myself (that I was smart enough, ambitious enough, good enough) that I missed so many important, beautiful things along the way. I was always chasing something, telling myself I’d find happiness in the next assignment, job or party, in the next five pounds, or maybe the five after that. I sought external validation and was crippled when I didn’t get it. I was plagued by feeling like I hadn’t found my place in this world. I questioned my work and my authenticity, living in a constant flux of anxiety and depression that eventually contributed to me resigning from my job.
I needed time to think. I was sick, tired, sad and confused. I felt like I had gone off track (or more honestly, completely off the rails) somewhere along the way, but I couldn’t quite figure out what had gone wrong, or where. On the outside, things looked good. I was more or less always moving forward, yet for some reason I felt like my work didn’t matter. When you define yourself by your work as I did, this eventually causes you to misinterpret this as meaning you don’t matter. These thoughts kept me up all night, but left me exhausted and bedridden during the day. It took a lot of work for me to return to some semblance of normalcy. Yet even after I got my shit together and stopped feeling sorry for myself, something didn’t quite feel right. I couldn’t shake the thought that there had to be more to life than this. Continue reading “And So It Begins…”
Put the kettle on, get your tea mug ready and wrap yourself up in a warm, fuzzy blanket because tonight we’re talking about reading! I started compiling this list as I was preparing for my yoga teacher training and have decided to continue updating it as I discover more yoga books and texts. If I’ve missed any, please feel free to post them in the comments below! I have not yet read all of these, but they’re on my list.
Continue reading “The Yogi’s Guide to Essential Reading”
When Marie Kondo is decluttering, she doesn’t focus on the things she wants to throw away, instead she looks at what she wants to keep. And when she isn’t quite sure, she takes the item in her hand and asks, “Does this spark joy?”
The author of the best selling book The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up is literally talking about material possessions here, but the entire process is 100 per cent a metaphor for life. Continue reading “Does This Spark Joy?”
Ah, December 1st, you have arrived. It is my annual tradition to spend way too much time this month reflecting on the past year. I love setting resolutions and goals, planning adventures, establishing steps to get closer to my dreams, reflecting on my memories, moments and the things that affected me. I try to focus on the good stuff and learn from the bad stuff. This year I’m also thinking a lot about myself as a person, and the kind of person I want to be (and the life I want to lead) going forward. Continue reading “Don’t Wait Until January, Here’s How You Can Start Improving Your Life Today”
I’m doing everything I can to embrace positivity these days. It’s not like I’m not a positive person to begin with, it’s just that since I struggle with some anxiety and depression, positivity is not always my go-to attitude. I turn to negative thinking almost out of habit. I’m such a chronic worrier, for example, that sometimes it’s hard for me to look at things on the bright side. This really doesn’t match my personality or who I am in general, so I’ve been working to change this. I want to live a full, beautiful, optimistic life, so it’s time to get rid of those negative thought patterns. Continue reading “Chasing Positivity”